Friday, July 15, 2011

Being Human....

For a moment forget that you are a man or a woman. Just think that you are a human being. Now as a human being what do you need to live in this today's world.

1) A place to live

2) Food to eat

3) A job to pay for your above needs

4) Love to make you feel worth your existence

Is that all? I ask myself. I guess yes....this is all I need for a basic survival indeed. Now I ask mysef are these the only things I really really need? Tough.....hmmm....no. There are other things which I need like a good book to read, some lovely music to listen, some movie to watch, a bit of travelling here and there to quench my curiosity about this world, and a little bit of this and a little bit of that. But still aren't these simple things to ask for? Then why is our life so complicated? Why there is so much of turmoil going around? What do we really really want out of our lives? I guess the answer is all we want is ourselves. We need our own inner self which we rarely get to keep in touch. Whether it's a man or a woman, everybody needs to embrace themselves and feel the purpose of our existence.

As it is now....

Just had a conversation with a lady who works around me. We got into discussing attitudes. In between our conversation I stated that my general attitude towards people is "Tit for Tat". My behaviour with a particular person hugely depends on how that person behaves wit me. In a very composed and casual way she responded that initially she would also think likewise but it's her father (philosophical one) who has got her down into thinking that if you behave or act like the other person than what's the difference between you and him/her.

This line really got me into thinking in my own rebel way. I have always thought of myself very differently. I have no shame/inhibition in admitting that I like to stand-out from the crowd. I have always thought of myself being someone special. I do not care about how special do others think about me but I hold myself quite high when it comes to feeling that extra special. I guess I am going to mull over this topic and get something substantial out of it. Because yes I do want to be differentiated. I am not like others.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Learn

Its been quite sometime since I have penned down my thoughts. As usual I am busy experiencing life at its best and at its worst. Where am I now? At 31 years of age? Married and mother of one? Well.....it's not that bad after all. I am leading a normal life the way people expect a normal person or a woman to lead. I have my good days and bad days but hey who cares as long as you are in the queue and not questioning it. Right now I am at my best behaviour. No more rebel no less conformist. Just the way the society or the people around me wants me to be.

Why am I doing it? To learn. To get to know the advantage of being a "typical" person. Its fun, it works and i am sure it will work in the long run. But what about those questions in my mind? What about those answers i am seeking? And what about those unsaid words? Those incomplete explanations? I say to myself don't worry girl.....you have your life to explore all this. Take it one at a time. You will...no...you can get whatever you want out of this life whenever you want. Just remember one thing. It's only a matter of time!

I WISH I WAS IN HERE.......